What Will You Do with Your Anger?

What will you do with your anger? We all experience it. No one is exempt from the intense emotions that come with anger. My parents raised me to believe that the ultimate enemy is the root cause of all anger. Consequently, giving in to that emotion means evil has overtaken you.

Not wanting to fall into the hands of the enemy, I had learned early in life to bury any emotion and event that edged me toward anger. The result of this fruitless task is that my anger turned into depression, a plague that walked beside me for much of my life. As I’ve grown and healed, I’ve discovered that anger turned inward often shows itself in the form of depression, and no matter how much effort one may use, nothing can remain buried, not even emotions.

My Source of Anger

I’ve disclosed in some of my recent blog and Facebook posts that I’ve been suffering from significant, chronic pain due to hip injuries. Not long ago, my doctor did an ultrasound on my hips, which revealed a torn ligament on my right hip, along with multiple other abnormalities on both hips. All these findings contribute to my pain and mobility challenges.

I had high hopes that my orthopedic surgeon would be able to repair whatever anomalies this test divulged. I expected a lengthy recovery time from surgery, but once I fully healed, I would have a new lease on life and be able to do all those activities I so dearly love, pain-free.

However, what I had hoped for did not happen. My doctor told me that due to the placement of the torn ligament, it can’t be repaired. Neither can all the other ligaments nor the surrounding tissues that have lost integrity on both hips be repaired. The deterioration of my hips, along with the inability to have them repaired, resulted from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a condition I was born with. I remained silent during the two-and-a-half-hour drive home as heartbreaking disappointment sank in. By the time we returned home, that disappointment had turned into anger.

Recently, a close friend of mine, whom I will call Alisha, lost her job. She holds a prominent degree and loves working in her chosen field. Alisha quickly found another job, one that has no education requirements. Yet her desire to continue working in her chosen field drove her to search the nation for a position within her expertise. Every job interview she went to led to disappointment, which soon led to depression.

Misplaced Anger

Once we returned home from my doctor’s appointment, my anger latched onto Alisha. She may not be working in her chosen field; however, her household earns sufficient income, so she doesn’t need to work. Someday, she may still get the job she’s searching for. Even if she doesn’t, her losses can’t compare with mine.

Due to this debilitating syndrome I live with, I’ve experienced loss after loss throughout my entire life. I had to give up my independence of driving in my early forties. The pain in my hands increased, making it hard to write, draw, paint, crochet, and play the piano a couple of decades ago. I lost my ability to bike, ski, hike, and engage in other such activities, all due to the deterioration of my connective tissues. All those activities I loved, and I mourn their losses even today.

I am now facing the reality of a new norm that includes even more losses. The pain in my hips keeps me from walking through stores. To cook a healthy meal—something I greatly enjoy—to recover, I must lie on the couch with a heating pad for multiple hours. I may never again be able to walk our beloved forest paths or hike trails to the abundant natural falls in our county. All these losses don’t even include the countless ones I’ve had due to the four-and-a-half decades of abuse. My misplaced anger screamed inside of me, “Alisha knows nothing of loss. She has no idea how good off she has it!”

How I Managed My Anger.

For about twenty-four hours, I allowed myself to be angry and worked the feeling through my system. During that timeframe, I remained careful to avoid contact with anyone my intense emotion could harm—in this case, specifically Alisha. Once my anger fizzled away, I returned to praying to God to help me through whatever my future may hold. I believe my Savior answered my prayer, for my attention was instantly drawn to a specific scripture in Isaiah.

“Listen to me . . . I’ve been carrying you on my back from the day you were born. And I’ll keep on carrying you when you’re old. I’ll be there, bearing you when you’re old and gray. I’ve done it and will keep on doing it, carrying you on my back saving you.”—Isaiah 46:3-4 (MSG)

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Even though each year carried with it the distinct pattern of Ehlers-Danlos symptoms intensifying, leading to more and more loss, the one thing I can always count on, never losing, is my Savior’s love. I can always rest assured that my Heavenly Parent will be with me. That fact alone is worthy of joy.

What Will You Do with Your Anger?

We cannot accurately compare one person’s loss to another’s. Unknown factors are always involved in each person’s situation that can’t be measured. Everyone deserves compassion and understanding for their losses and the accompanying emotions they experience. We all experience anger, but what will you do with your anger? I’m grateful I’ve gained enough wisdom over the years to process anger constructively when it visits me, then I can thank it and send it on its way.

When anger is left unchecked, it can poison the person, their relationships, and many other aspects of their lives. My parents did that, and as a result, they allowed anger from past wounds to lash out at loved ones and rip our family apart. I’m grateful I’ve learned a different way to exist. I’ve learned to see anger as a voice that tells me when something is wrong. Instead of silencing that uncomfortable voice, I listen to it. As a result, I can now turn my anger into something valuable.

I have turned that voice of anger into a useful tool that sparks my writing, allowing me to reach out and help others. So, I must ask you once again. What will you do with your anger? For more on this topic, go to https://crystalmmhuntley.com/2024/04/how-to-be-set-free/.

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Note to My Readers

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Writing is my passion. It is also an excellent healing tool. The beauty of fiction is that it allows you to create outcomes that don’t exist in the everyday world. This is why I have chosen to write my book in this genre. I pray that all who indulge in my written creations find entertainment and enjoyment. I also pray that you become inspired to move forward in your healing journey. May all who indulge in my written creations find entertainment, enjoyment, and inspiration to move forth in your healing journey.

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My Source of Anger

Misplaced Anger

How I Managed My Anger.

What Will You Do with Your Anger?

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