What Do You Do When in Crisis Mode?

What do you do when in crisis mode? I wish I could offer a solid answer. My past has taught me the importance of surrendering to forgiveness. I’ve been working on mastering that ability over the last three decades.

When I take my focus off the transgression someone has done to me and instead place it on the transgressions they have suffered, I can see them as wounded children and can forgive. That doesn’t mean I forget how they’ve harmed me, nor what they are capable of. Remembering those things is important for my own growth and protection. This different angle of focus removes the power those people have held over me, breaking me free from the chains they once secured around me.

But how does one forgive when no human being is involved in the harm inflicted? I’m currently learning this new level of forgiveness. It appears that it begins by surrendering. For more on surrendering, see https://crystalmmhuntley.com/2025/12/is-it-best-to-change-or-surrender/ and https://crystalmmhuntley.com/2026/01/seven-septs-to-surrendering/.

My Crisis

I’ve been suffering from a health crisis since the beginning of this past summer. My entire life, I’ve dealt with severe pain and have successfully battled past it to live my best quality of life possible. But this time, things are different. The pain I now live with is significantly higher than previous times, even though I’m taking higher doses of prescription pain medications than ever before. I seem to be in constant prayer mode, asking God to heal me, yet the pain continues to rise, swallowing up every aspect of my life.

A recent ultrasound confirmed that not only are there tears in my hip and pelvis ligaments, but also all the connective tissues are losing consistency, much like the material of an old, worn-out shirt, fraying so thin that any effort to patch it only results in more tears. But this isn’t an old shirt that can be thrown out and replaced with a new one. This is my life!

This past Christmas Eve, I pushed myself to attend our church’s Christmas Eve services. For the ministry of music, Rich and I sang “Mary Did You Know” as a duet. The worship service and fellowship with members of our congregation following it did wonders for my mental health. However, participating in this event drove my pain level to even greater levels, and this heightened pain still hasn’t subsided.

I so desperately want to participate in social events and provide ministry to our church. I want to be among such fellowship moments. The thought that the Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which I was born with, has progressed to a level that I may not be able to continue with social events, devastates me.

My Crisis Continues

My current physical limitations stretch way beyond church matters. I must greatly limit any position that places pressure on my pelvis. Even sitting upright in a chair quickly becomes unbearable. Very few activities can be done while in a reclined position. When not resting, the pain becomes so intense that I fight constant nausea and dizziness. This level of pain also affects my brain’s ability to focus.

I’m relentlessly fighting the devastating reality that if things continue to advance, I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to keep up with my blog writing, Crystalism posting, not to mention complete my next book, a sequel to The Hidden Diamond. I also have other books I wish to write. I can’t bear the devastating thought of giving up this dream to minister through my writing.

I’m afraid of what my future might look like. To temper this fear, I shift my focus to the countless blessings that surround me. I’m grateful beyond measure that God has given me Rich, and I know with assurance that he will always love and care for me regardless. And still, I want to give Rich more than my nearly bedridden self can offer.

What I Do When in Crisis Mode.

I’m recognizing that to have inner peace, I must distinguish between those areas where I have the power to change things and where I am powerless.

The Serinity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

enjoying one moment at a time;

accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;

trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;

that I may be reasonable happy in this life

and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.

Amen

–Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

Prayers like the Serenity Prayer help me to accept such limitations. You can read about the Serenity Prayer’s history at Serenity Prayer – God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot (beliefnet.com).

As I suffer through my days and nights, I focus on what I call spiritual snacks and scriptural prayers. Reading scripture passages at random throughout the day provides me with my spiritual snacks. My scriptural prayers come from turning a scripture that speaks to me into a prayer. The following Crystalism contains a scriptural prayer that has lately given me much comfort.

To see more Crystalisms, visit https://www.facebook.com/groups/1360983917796761.

A Shift Toward Surrender

I’m constantly praying, “Dear God, please heal me.” I believe wholeheartedly in God’s ability to heal. I also believe that our Loving Parent wants our lives to be filled with joy and not suffering. As a result of what I’ve been going through, whenever I catch myself praying for healing, I now change that prayer to “Dear God, help me to surrender.”

Learning how and when to surrender, I believe, is the next mountain to climb on my healing journey. Ahead of me, I’m facing a steep slope, but I have faith that by ingesting spiritual snacks and taking in scriptural prayers, I will gain the nourishment needed to scale this mountain. Once I reach the top, as a reward, I will gain a proficient ability to surrender.

So, I ask, what do you do when in crisis mode? What is your next mountain to scale? Whatever your answers may be, I hope and pray that this blog helps you along your journey.

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I invite you to join me next time and ponder the question of who you truly are.

Note to My Readers

To further support your healing journey, I’ve added a direct access hotline/resource page to my website. You can view it at https://crystalmmhuntley.com/resources/.

Writing is my passion. It is also an excellent healing tool. The beauty of fiction is that it allows you to create outcomes that don’t exist in the everyday world. This is why I have chosen to write my book in this genre. May all who indulge in my written creations find entertainment, enjoyment, and inspiration to move forth in your healing journey.

Hopefully, you have gained value from this blog post. If you have, I would like to offer you the opportunity to purchase my books. You can purchase The Hidden Diamondand Robin’s Gift there at BUY THE BOOK – Crystal MM Huntley.

***Robin’s Gift*** – Lost and alone, Natalie’s biggest dream is to fulfill her desire to be loved. A tragic accident calls her home. Can she return and face her greatest fear?

***The Hidden Diamond*** – Immerse yourself in a journey that uncovers the worth of a wounded soul amongst a lifetime of sin.

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My Crisis

My Crisis Continues

What I Do When in Crisis Mode.

A Shift Toward Surrender

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Note to My Readers

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